... realizing about a year ago that I have no empathy, am retarded when it comes to forming bonds or caring for others, have a flat personality resulting from no feelings or suppressed feelings, faulty memory and cannot recall parts of my childhood, have a deep seated anger and rage that is literally sizzling beneath the surface mostly towards my mother due to her neglect towards be as a baby, I have targeted individuals and changed my personality to fit there needs, feel moments of a rush when I manipulate others weaknesses and laugh secretly to myself, have evil in me and sometimes am proud of it because I'm so deeply hurt underneath all of this. And I fear getting in touch with that part of me. Is there any way I can become a good person? To ever trust another? If I focus on love and changing then could I possibly have hope for living on this planet with you guys? A tint Part of me is starting to want something more than this empty life of cruelty. But some hope or advice from anyone would help me