i still eat but have all the mental affects of an eating disorder. I always feel fat and hate myself for eating and i feel like i'm never skinny enough and sometimes starve myself but i always end up eating but very little amounts and when i do eat alot i start crying and get mad at myself. It all started when one day i got so sick that i stopped eating for 2 weeks and i lost 10 pounds and i looked much more skinny so i kept trying to starve myself and i kept getting skinnier and the more skinnier i was the more happy about myself i was but to me i was still never skinny enough and hated myself when i ate and i felt fat eating in front of anyone if they did not ask me if i was ok cause them worrying about why i ate so little made me feel pretty. i always weigh myself and i'm never happy with what i weigh no matter how low and the only reason i didnt weigh less than 89 pounds was cause my mom said if i weigh less than that she would put me in a hospital where they would make me eat. later when i recovered i started eating normal and almost gained all the weight i loss but now i look fat and i'm not skinny anymore so i tried to starve myself again but i cant i always end up eating which makes me hate myself even more. So i don't have a eating disorder cause i still eat and i just dont want to be fat anymore i want to be skinny like i was before and every day i regret recovering from it. The only way i will ever feel skinny is if i weigh so little my mom ask me if im ok. Help :(
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Hey, my names brian. I cant say i know from my own personal experiance,however, i have helped several frineds with the same thing along with helping my kid sister with self esteem. One thing ive found that works is if you eat and feel bad about it do some sit ups or go for a walk to trick your mind. Its like reverse psychology. Realisticly,alot of people have these kinds of problems because of our culture. The main thing to do is love yourself for you and not for what other peolle like about other people...I.E. Mkdels or famous people. I went to prison for 4 years and people will either like you for you or not like you for something small. Idk how old you are, im 21,male and weigh 165lbs at 6ft.im 10-15 lbs over my heigh/weight ratio but its muscle. So if you 17 and weigh 115lbs at say 5ft 5 or what ever you ratio is youre fine. Just remeber, smile and love yourself for you.
-brian
The first line of defense against depression and anxiety is B vitamins. Get nutritional yeast powder and/or B-100 pills. Vitamin B2 is a water soluble dye that turns urine bright yellow. When the color fades, it's time for another pill.
Magnesium strengthens muscles, calms nerves, stops cramps, and fights infections. Get epsom salt. It is cheap, five bux for a year's supply. Put a dose in a glass with water to cover and stir until it dissolves. Fill the glass with lemonade and drink it. You can take it without the lemonade but you won't like the taste. Milk of magnesia is more expensive but nicer tasting and gentler laxative action. Your choice.
Read some books about nutrition so you know how to eat right.