I met my boyfriend in DEC 2010 I have known him for almost 2yrs been together for 1yr and 2 months. Okay this is my story I met him over the phone on Dec 30 2010 and I completely liked him since the first conversation we had I was naive and I fell in love with him hard. so as the days went on on Feb 2011 he asked me to be his girlfriend and Of course i said yes so we were good for a couple of months but since i was so naive i would let him hang up on me, fall asleep while i was talking to him, hurt me (emotionally) and even one day in may of 2011 he had told me he had sent a picture to a girl because she asked him to because she was curious how he looked of course I was mad but i let it slide so then a month or two later he did the same but this time i didn't let it slide i was mad and argued with him and he said he was sorry and that he will not do it again. I was hurt because I'm not the typical model chick porno looking girl (if you know what i mean) but i do have a pretty face.I know that he LOVES those types a girls what male does't like pretty slim girls with big boobs and stuff I really don't think highly of myself when it comes to pretty or sexy or wanted so for him to do that it hurt my feelings anyway so I ended up forgiving him anyway so keep in mind this is a long distance relationship (like a 6 to 8 hour distance ) so by now its June or July of 2011 and we haven't seen each other face to face only pictures or web cam but that's it. So by this time we would have phone sex a lot almost everyday (we've bin having phone sex since we met) it was good and exiting still is. He started out being very serious not making me laugh that much quiet all the time was pretty boring but i just couldn't just not talk to him something about him was luring me to him so anyways i'm so talkative very funny down to earth girl like a guys girl cool and understanding well anyways our problems would be that he would ignore me sometimes when we were on the webcam he would fall asleep on me on the phone i felt that he wasn't in to me i was in pain because i would get sick like a cold or virus and he would fall asleep on the phone like he wouldn't care and he even told me once and he gave me an apology and we got over it so once i told him crying that i cant take it anymore and that i wanted to break up it scared him and got into shape and did change somethings he was doing wrong. So in between October and December he had made a Facebook and like always he was talking to girls texting them and i thought flirting with them so we had a few arguments and that was that. So then i went to go visit him in Houston for the 2 week Christmas vacations in 2011 were he and his family lives together and i stayed with him for a week and he came back with me and my family to were i live and stayed another week as we were in my town we went to the mall and he stared at a girl while we were at foot lockers but i stayed quiet so he stayed till Jan 2ND 2012 so by then in the end of Jan he told me he sent a IM to one of my friends that's a girl and she is VERY VERY sexy beautiful and damn HOT he has always bin honest with me no matter wat it is so when he told me he sent her "cute pic" when he would never comment on my pictures or make me feel special sexy beautiful or anything i got jealous so i made a whole big scene and decided to check his Facebook so one day i did and saw all these messages to so many girls and i saw that he asked a girl her number that did it for me i had had it because they were all hot and sexy and he never talked to me like that or made me fell like that. so that broke my heart so i cried and cried so i decided to talk to other guys so he can get off my mind get over him and even not to feel depressed anymore but i did it without him knowing so I was talking to this guy in Feb 2012 and i talked to him so cool i was even liking him and i had phone sex with him i was mostly faking the noises but still i feel bad for what i did so i stopped talking to him(which i wish i didn't)and worked it out with my boyfriend so i recently told him about me talking to other guys but NOT that i had a kinda phone sex so he forgave me because he understood why i did it but mind you he doesn't know i had the phone sex. i have major trust issues with him i don't trust him at all so recently i have bin dieting and loosing weight so i feel that he took a major interest in me which hurts my feelings well he has changes over these months so recently we have bin arguing and talking about us and i told him that he is a shitty BF and he doesnt stand up for me he doesnt defend me he doesnt get jealous even when i lie about a guy who flirted or looked at me he doesnt buy me things or do things for me hes not romantic but he is a good guy he means well i know he does but sometimes i need attention which he doesnt give me i want him to make me feel special but nope recently I talked to another guy and i like him but i shouldnt i feel bad = (

So recently I talked to another guy and had phone sex and I like him and I also liked the phone sex I feel so bad what do I do now I don’t want to leave my BF I do love him but he just hurts me a lot help me please I feel like I’m going to die I need help someone talk to me a email or number anything please I don’t want to lose him