i have been recently thinking of going abroad to study psychology. Before my girlfriend and i had a fight over this and we decided that i would talk about it again when i got more serious about it. So yesterday i got serious enough and wanted to talk about it. But before that i had to ask the stupid questions such as "do u love me" and "what are we" and "do you want to break up". I know saying those were not the thing to ask but at our school she tends to talk to other guys and laugh but never talks to me, never laughs at my jokes, and when i go near her she avoids me, the best part when im talking with her she tends to interupt and talk with someone else. She says she does this because she is shy and says that when i talk to her everyone tends to try not to bother us or something and she doesn`t like doing that. So after asking she said yes i want to break up and i asked if that was true and she said yes. So i got my bag and began to put anything that will leave any shadow of my existence. I know it was stupid but i was really upset. But then her mother came in and began to yell at her and they are having a fight. i try to calm it down and it only gets worst. My girlfriend then leaves the house and i go running after her. I finally find her and she gets more upset but it was late and a bit dangerous so i forced her to go back. On the way back she was saying shit like i forgot i was to wired up at the moment. But she began to punch me in the face... i know outch. But once i got her home she began talking to her mother saying that she was afraid of me betraying her. She also had felt that she was still too childish and needed to grow up by herself or something and said that she doesnt want anyones help and wants to be alone and doesn`t want to have anything to do with love. I then decided to leave because no matter what i said it would just make it worst. So i leave and i couldn`t sleep at all. Btw my family said that im not a part of the family because of me staying so late at her house trying to help her calm down and not commit suicide that my family kicked me out of the house. So i am now homeless and am writting this on a computer my friend is lending me.
I really really love this girl and i want to be with her for my life i know i shouldn`t have asked such stupid questions and that this fight is mostly my fault but i want her in my life and i want to be in hers to be by her side and make her happy so please tell me what i should do anything would be good advice except for jokes. I am very serious and i beg of all please help me.