So I've been dating my girlfriend for 9 months now. It's not a very long time, but to me it was quite a journey. Anyways, my girlfriend is the very.. jealous type. If I ever have a conversation with another girl (who are just friends), she goes murder crazy and nothing that I say will get to her head until a few days past or I end up saying something that works... She also tends to think a lot. Like whenever we've finally cleared things up and things are going good for once, something always tends to mess things up right after. And oddly.. at the end of every month (right before our anniversary) she always lets things go to her head and then gets super pissy and emo until like, a few days into the next month.

I love her.. I really do.. I'm trying my hardest to keep this reltionship together, and to help pull her out of the darkness she was once in.. but no matter how hard I try or keep trying, she always some how manages to let that darkness engulf her into being the girl that I don't really know anymore... we've been on the verge of breaking up many times and most of it for stupid reasons, or out of pure anger and frustration (mostly her trying to break it off) But somehow.... something comes along.. and we end up perfectly fine.. ^^ We clear some things up that were left unclear through the argument.. and we love each other again like the first time we met..

Right now though.. she just had a bad dream of me cheating on her and flirting with multiple girls which I would never ever do... She told me she woke up crying and coughing, when the night before was going fantastically well.. Then she told me that.. she's having second thoughts about me.. again..

I'm.. afraid.. very afraid... our relationship.. tends to be in the red and green a lot.. but as of now..? I feel as if it's hanging on to the thinest piece of string.. I wanna save her again.. but it's getting to the point where my strength is depleted and I can't find anymore reasons to stay with her.. other than Me loving her.. and me making a promise to never leave her for whatever reason...

I plea for help.. from all of you..