When I go to bed, I put myself in someone else's or my own shoes, and imagine that something awful had happened (my twin dying, becoming crippled). Then I sob my heart out until I fall to sleep. Every day I look at myself and think 'look at me. I have dark circles under my eyes, I don't sleep at night.... What must people think of me?' I need to help myself. How can I do this? I'm way too shy to talk to a doctor until I know if this is serious or not.