I'm 17 and I feel like I shouldn't but dying is literally all I think about now. I'm so depressed and I'm not sure what I need to do but something has to change. I talked to a girl I've been hanging out with and she won't talk to me anymore because of it. I'm a guy and I just want to cry and be held but I can't. I don't know what needs to be done but I can't keep going like this D':