Everything is going bad after my sister's death because she died because of me.
My whole family is educated and i am not.
I am not even graduated.
I hate studies and just because of this i am doing two jobs just to ignore everything but i am lost ?
I think i forgot who i am ? What i am ?
I hav few friends but nobody knows whats just going inside me ?
i want someone to be mine with whom atleast once i can share my whole stuff ?
I am seeing myself as a loser although I am mot a loser? I dont know who I am ? I lost myself?
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- 3+ months ago by Mubeshir_...
- Topics:
- family, death, sister, seeing, lost, losers, everything, bad
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I am really sorry for your loss, I can't begin to imagine what you're going through right now. But please, don't blame yourself for your sisters death. Sometimes life has this cruel way of testing us, you need to stay strong! I'm sure she's in a much better place right now. You need to move on. I know it must seem impossible right now. But you have to. This is a wound that only time and your own will to live can heal.
You are a very nice person, you should go back to college and graduate. So that you may find your special someone and be able to support your future family and have a great life! You're still young, please value your life. Nobody is born into the world for being alone. Everyone has someone, you just have to find them.
You should go back to college and move on my friend. I'm sure your sister didn't want you to give up on life.
You need someone to talk to, go out there meet some good people, someone to share your feelings with, after all only relationships provide us true happiness in this world.
She is in much better place then our place.
And i cant go to college because i hate studies seriousley.
I cant even try to study because maybe its not my type of thing. i am totally different then everyone at my home because they are so educated and they are well settled.
I am settle too because i am doing two JOBS and by the GRACE of ALMIGHTY i am earning much more then anyone (:
Issue is this that i am completely alone.
I shouldnt do all this stuff.
The reason why i am writing all this because i wanna share my stuff not to gain sympothy or like something.
I Cant study anymore :-(
I really dont know what the hell i am doing and who the hell i am and what i am doing in this world :-(
I feel broken.
I have everything but to be honest m not feeling happy