So I used to loathe my dad and blame everything bad that happened to me on him, and when I got in trouble I tried to blame him every time. I would constantly plot ways on how I could make him feel guilt or to prove him wrong. Now I finally realize that I have been self centered and ignorant the whole time and I was always the problem when I got in trouble. I want to make amends with my father and build a relationship with him again, however it seems that as soon as I started caring about my personal development and our relationship, he has stopped. He now gets ticked off by even the most insignificant mistakes I make (such as not phrasing something properly, or not looking up when someone is talking about something that has to do with me) he brings up things from the past that I did to hurt him and there is nothing I really can do except apologize, but he doesn't accept my apologies. I want to be able to have a good relationship, but it's hard to keep trying because I have no experience with real complex character development that my dad wants me to do, and I can't ask my dad for advice, also it seems there is no way to improve. (What will help repair my relationship is if my dad sees improvement). I'm not really sure what I have to improve, I just know that I need to start looking at myself instead of criticizing others, which is what I do now, but there are so many more things that my dad expects of me.