Me and my boyfriend are together for 4,5 years (out of which about 4 months we were apart). it is important to notice that at the beginning of our relationship (approx.1 year ) my dad passed away who I was very close to and what significantly changed out relationship.
For about 1,5 year I am living in another city (1,5 hour drive where we used to live), as I found a job there. But after this time, I am feeling lonely, burnt out (I really dislike this job) and anxious. I am "back to life" on the weekends when we are back together, but Mon - Fri is very difficult for me. I am stressed at work and I have no outlet after office hours ( I am rather shy person and I made few friends, but they are committed to their family life more than friendships).
I want to go back to our town, take some time calming down and figuring out the next step, as it seems that the career I chose is not what makes me happy. In the same time, my boyfriend says that I should not go back without any job.
I don't have savings ( but I will be given 3 month salaries on my leave ) and I know that it would be more responsible to move back with the job... but my psychological state kills me... and I am becoming a person that I really don't like, as the whole situation is very challenging. As I said, 3 years ago my dad passed away so I feel that I don't have anyone to talk to and the loneliness here is overwhelming.
How can I talk to my boyfriend to make him understand how difficult ( it is close to not possible to bear anymore...) it is for me?