I dont know whether my childhood was normal or not, Idk what others go through but I was so insecure as a child, my parents were up and down, attacking me physically and calling me fat. At 14 I was overweight and everyone picked on me and I never received a compliment.....I started getting paranoid and anxious and withdrew myself more and more. At 15 I snapped and left school, my parents would throw me on the streets, they attacked me physically and emotionally, I started seeing a mental health professional and started taking pills but I got more and more psychotic and eventually completely lost touch with reality, I was hearing and seeing things. I kept trying to get things together but it failed, couldn't last on any college course. at 16 I was admitted to hospital, I got out and started medicine again. I started to lose weight and then this became an obsession, I got down to 85lbs and was threatened again with hospital, I'm still underweight but no where near as bad.
However I am struggling with ocd, rituals, routines and honestly, I don't know what to do. Everything has flipped, since losing weight I get attention and complimented. people are much nicer to me. My parents love me more than ever now....just because I went from an ugly duckling.
I'm confused and I don't know what to make of my life, I love alone
