I have a male friend I think I fell attracted to. And I guess he likes me back because of the way he looks at me. He even gets unconfortable if I talk about another guys. But phisically he isn't the kind of guy I would like. I mean, I love weirdos but not in the ways he is. I feel I 'd never be ready to introduce him as my significant other. In fact many aspects of his personality are unkind and they don't fit with mine. But I think about us major of the time and I hate myself for being so fool. I often ask myself "Really? Are you thiking him in that way? Him? No way"But when I stand by him I want him to hold me. Even kiss me. And I feel so stupid after feeling that. Maybe my ideal perfect match is too unreal and probably I just have to let it go. But then I think he will appear one of those days. Why my head is such a bitch?
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Day dreaming, fantasizing, pretending, denial, not accepting reality. Who hasn't fantasized about hooking up with some rock star? You just choose to ignore all the drunken brawls, driving under the influence court appearances, the illegal drugs found on his person at a simple traffic stop and all the drug rehabilitation programs both court ordered and voluntary.
The excitement of pretending makes us stupid. It can also get us into deep trouble. That's where lack of maturity is an issue. Weird might be an interesting town to drive through but you don't want to stop and you sure as heck shouldn't live there.