Ever since I was very, VERY young, I have had tokophobia. I only recently found out that there was a word for my fear, and that is actually a tremendous consolation to me because perhaps I can more easily describe how I feel. I furiously hate everything that has anything to do with reproduction, I refuse to hear conversations about anything related to any of that stuff, and no, I am not just immature. This is a real, violent, hate. I am even considering hysterectomy.
Please understand me. I don't know what to say to my parents. Once my mom asked me if I wanted to have kids someday, and I avoided the question (of course!) But eventually I will have to say something. I won't even date a guy who would want kids in the future. My mom thinks its weird that I refuse to date so many "nice guys" or "cute guys".
Don't get me wrong, I'm not a kid-hater. I'm just not a baby person and I'm not very fond of toddlers. Ok, there's only a select FEW toddlers that I can tolerate. But I am great with older kids. The problem is, I just never, EVER want biological children. I would rather adopt an older kid, and I would prefer a special needs kid because I have always felt a deep connection to kids with special needs. I really love them.
Does anyone have any advice for a weird person like me? I'm terrible at speaking my mind about such a serious topic. Any input here would be gladly appreciated! But please, keep your answers somewhat polite and completely swear-free! Thank you in advance.
