I just recently finished my first year of college and, being honest, I found it incredibly hard. I came out of this year with what can only be described as "average grades", which I was proud of! I pushed myself to the limit to get these grades, and even though they weren't what I was expecting I was still pleased. My mum, on the other hand, was less so. Since my first ever exams I have always been a "straight A student"; In primary school I achieved the best results of the entire year, and continued to get A's up until reaching college.
Needless to say, college is a LOT harder than school, so when I didnt get any A's this year I didn't mind. My mum, though, brings it up at least once a day, telling me I need to "book my ideas up", "stop wasting my time on the internet", and most recently "stop treating school like a game".
In addition to this, she is constantly stalking facebook on results days to compare me to my peers. If anyone scores higher than me, she always says something along the lines of "you were so much better them. If only you weren't lazy". These are just a few of the many, MANY things she has said.
If what she said was true, I would try and turn myself around, but I truly did push myself to the limit this year, and she doesnt believe it. This year she has told me I need to start revising 2 hours a day for the exams which are in a years time, the school year not having started yet, and I don't think I can handle the amount of pressure she is putting on me for a month more, let alone a year.
I would not be posting this now if what she continues to say makes me cry frequently, and feel even less motivated for the oncoming college year.
How do I let her know that her "motivation" does not inspire me to try harder, it just makes me fall into depression?
I have already tried telling her simply, and she told me I don't know what hard work is.
Thankyou for any help.
