I'm a girl and I've always been with men. I find men and women both attractive. I've never been intimate with a girl and all the guys that I've been with I never enjoyed the touching each other part. I've been with this certain guy for four years and we're engaged but lately I've just been questioning more and more if this is what I want. I love who he is and he's a wonderful guy but I just don't know. I hate kissing him, touching him, or anything of that matter. I don't know if I'm gay though. I've always had crushes on both sexes. I don't know. I'm so confused.