I only used for a few months, and quit in feb. Im 21, when i was 16 I used to take Valium to get high a few times here and there. Im in college, and my school has a psychiatrist that I see. I seeked help form him while quitting. He gave me ssri, but they made me want to kill myself. I no longer feel this way; but dont ever want to go back on them. They screwed me up a lot. I wont try any different brand, there all evil to me. But since ssri are all non-abusable, thats all he will prescribe to me.
After quitting speed, I got paranoid, delusions, hallucinations. All the 'normal' symptoms after quitting. Now 5 months later, the mass amount of paranoia and delusions finally reside. I still experience horrible anxiety, which i had before using. I tried to get anti-anxiety medication when i quit, but the doctor deemed it too risky to me. (i feel it was to himself, in fear of me abusing it and giving him a bad reputation). I've been clean for over 5 months. I feel, an anti-anxiety medication would help me restore to normal life easier. But how do i convince my doctor I truly need it, and wont abuse it anymore? Because, im done with getting high.
Now after stopping, I'm having trouble focusing. I cant seem to focus on something really interesting to me for more than 15min. Something that isn't interesting to me, maybe i can focus for 5-10min. My entire life i had trouble with focusing, but not to this degree. I feel I may need medication to help restore my mental capacity; however, i am in no rush to get it. I would like to wait to see if i can return to normal on my own before seeking help. My question for this is, how likely is if for a doctor to prescribe ADD/ADHD medication to an ex meth addict?