I recently reminded of the unhappy experiences with my housemate. I shared a house with two girls more than a year ago. It was the 1st time I shared a house with others. And one of them suggested that we share all the foods and pay equally(now I know it was a bad idea). Then there came the conflicts, they sometimes invited many friends to have a meal with us, without asking me. I didn't want to appear stingy so I didn't say. I only stayed there for 4 months. Ｗhen I was leaving I thought I had right to take some shared stuff. But I didn't do that as I worried the dispute. Like they would complain they can't use if I took something. Yes, one of the girls was stingy in my view.
I didn't take it seriously for that moment. But now I suddenly reminded myself of that. I think I suffered losses. I feel I was abused. I was too shy, or maybe too stupid to express my idea. Now I keep thinking about it. I keep rebuilding the situation in m mind and thinking what I should have done. Like I am living in the past, not the present. What should I deal with my situation?