For some reason I am not a very confident person at all and it's decreasing any chance of me gaining employment.
I don't feel qualified to do anything, wash dishes, flip a burger, mop a floor, wait on a customers, not a damn thing. Employeers think so by the fact that I hear nothing from my applications when I put no experince but when I start to lie I start getting calls.
Too bad for me, I can't lie very well in person so I end up saying that I lied to get the job and they disqulafied me.
Or I get so axious that I may skip the interview all together. It happed 5 times out of the 17 I had these past 5 months.
The jobs I am applying for are retail, fast food, cleaning, entry level jobs and still I feel like the jobs are waay to advance for me because of my anxiety, low confidence, low self-esteem. And the fact I'm not deemed qualified to sweep floors for less than minwage.
Now, even if some chance I get an interview I can't relax or get excied about anything anymore. I think I'm going to fail anyway, so I don't even bothering trying. I feel like a huge burden and that I'm better off dead if can't find any employment soon. I'm am volunteering at multiple places but I still feel like a worthless peice of crap without having a job.
Does anyone hve any advice? I don't have any friends to help me out with this. And I would love to go to the military but I am too obese to join.
