i moved away from my parents cause i did nothing but argue with them and i started to believe my freinds ..(i thought were friends) my bestie was splitting me and my mum up more and i knew i had fallen into the rong crowd when i started drinking and smoking more heavely and i fked my life up i mad really bad desisions (that i only see now) well wat im trying to ask is im starting a course to go to collage and all of my friends hate me 1 even chased me around the town thumping the head of me :'( ive no one to talk too and i feel like im alone and lost my question is how do i not fk up when i go to collage like i have so far ??
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well this might seem like a long obsticle but it really isn't sometimes we all end up with the wrong type of people and we end up paying for it i think that we can get it back with college starting it is a whole new thresh hold that drives us new friends new looks different part time jobs some full time i think once your in college it will help yours and your moms relationship just say your sorry its a good start
Choose for yourself. You said you've learned from your screwups, so take that with you. Put any energy you have into your college and yourself, better yourself. Go read books about learning to accept yourself, go out find new friends, now if I'm correct, your negativity radar works. Use it. Always go for your inner feelings, but never loose your mind about it. And dump people who are using you to better themselfs. Mostly they can smell people like you from miles away, make sure you gain some self respect and they will leave you alone.
Whatever happens happens for the best. Even though you've made mistakes in your past you're accepting it without defeat which is quiet an achievement there itself. No one has the perfect life but they can achieve it if they concentrate on their goals.
If you think your parents would still argue with you then don't go back to them and as for your not- friends- anymore let them die in a pit of fire.
You don't need to please the world, you should please yourself and when you do I believe you wouldn't give a flying rats ass about the criticism. World is filled with critics but if you put the criticism in your heart rather than your mind, you'll give in; meaning you'll become weak and suicidal. Don't keep blaming yourself for the crappy things you've done, learn from it and promise yourself you won't do it again. If you keep blaming yourself you're just beating yourself up. There's nothing but depression in it. Why be depressed when there are soany other moods you can occupy? Life is short and if you're just going to keep blaming yourself, its either going to end depressingly or in a suicidal manner.
Use your mind, be smart, be humble to everyone. It'll make everyone shut up and they'll know how wrong they were.
As for your college,make new friends but maybe this time skip the cool crowd and dive in the hard working crowd.
I know whatever I've said is easier said than done but to be honest it's your will power. How far are you willing to go? I am willing to go the farthest, will you?
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