Everything in my life is going downhill lately. My enemy keeps getting really close to my best friend (She's also my crush) and telling me to go away and kicking and shoving me out the way. She's so horrible to me that I refuse to go anywhere near her, but it really hurts when I leave and my bff/crush stays with her and they joke and laugh and touch each other. It is even worse since I know my enemy loves her as she tried to kiss her in year 4, but luckily my bff/crush had some sense and ran away. I know she still likes her now though because of the way she clings to her, touches her and looks her in the eye. I wouldn't mistake that for just being friends. My enemy has made my life the worst and I've started cutting because I feel worthless. My cousin tried to give me advice on telling a teacher or another adult, but she can't seem to grasp that I can't. I'm a complete introvert. I can't just go up to an adult that I trust and tell them about this. I don't work like that. And yesterday I had my neighbour and their friends in my English class throw paper at me and rip out some of my hair. They also pushed me into a table and then walked off like it was nothing. I've also been recently treated like a loser by complete strangers as I walk past and today I was practicing singing for my new cover video I wanted to record soon as a Christmas special, but then my dad came in and told me to stop singing and then left. I cried again. I cry myself to sleep every time I'm alone. I just can't help it. I'm getting teary over this now. I have no intention of killing myself, in case you had that impression. I just want things to get better... do any of you have advice for me...?