Hello,
I have a dilemma. I have been married to a wonderful, kind, committed man for 10 years. He is everything one could ask for in a husband. The problem is that I don't know if I've ever been truly attracted to him. This feeling began when we were just dating and has nagged at me on and off during our marriage. I was attracted to my husband because of his sense of humor, his kindness, his love towards his family. I guess you could say we had and have emotional and intellectual chemistry. However, I have never been attracted to his body. In fact, I have always preferred to see him with his shirt on rather than off. This is not because he is fat or flabby... I've just never felt attracted to his body.
This has been a point of shame for me for many years, even before we married. The truth is I never felt like I could let him go because he was such a wonderful person. I couldn't think of a better person to get married to, in spite of not feeling a real physical attraction for him. Now, unfortunately, I am beginning to feel attracted to other men...men who I feel physical chemistry for, not just emotional chemistry. I'm beginning to wonder if I made the wrong decision by marrying someone I consider my best friend in the world. Many people will say that the body changes with age so it doesn't matter if you're physically attracted or not. But my problem is that the things that made me feel unattractive years ago are only becoming more magnified. I'm not sure what I should do. Any advice would be greatly appreciated !