... still quite angry off of it, still quite depressed, but I am pretty sure it is more severe when I take it. Basically I am irritable now, violent but I don't think I would make any advances regarding harming others. Just intense and vivid visions and feelings. However, I am starting to come to the realization that taking no medications is not too much better..don't know what to do though, I haven't even had a secure diagnosis, I could have a multitude of things. Basically I am kinda ruining my life, and I'm sick of it. What bothers me most is I don't know if I should blame myself, I have been recently. Whereas before I just kinda didn't even care (on Zoloft). I really do want to kill myself, aside from a couple things that allow me to stick around. I'm concerned I won't always uphold this small desire I have to live, and I'm really confused on what to do now. So I guess my question is what do I do? I have a lot more to say but I have already typed a whole lot