Hi- some background info... For a lot of my 20s I was afflicted with an anxiety disorder. Very damaging to quality of life, in that it ate away at my ability to be out in the world. It really stems from an unusual sensitivity towards people and this sensitivity is inborn. Recently, life has gotten much better. But there are still big road blocks.
Basically, I find it very hard to make, or rather keep, any new friends. ...I seem to cool off of wanting to hang around after a few months. Actually, I even experience t as a drag having to keep in touch or meet with them. Even after pushing my self, this feeling just doesn't go away.
My only answer is that I just prefer hanging out one on one (and tha has been hard to find with so many in a relationship). ...the other explanation I tha I hav spent to long as a recluse.
It is probably the anxiety. Though it could be more just that I am a private, introvert who jus wants one or two clos friends.
Hard to tell. I wish the world wasn't inclined to be harder on introverts. Since it makes I hard to tell whether my way is normal -for me- o whether I still have a mental illness. ...and if a person is different and likes a quieter life, with few but close ties to people - should they be labelled and made to feel that they hav to change? If it is that it is just harder and takes longer for them to feel a connection with people - or rather, a person...?