no it's not i haven't been happy since i was at least eighteen or nineteen. i've only occasionally felt good but not happy. i read that statement on a dumb blog or something. i recently realised i've been miserable since i graduated. the only thing i have to be proud of is my diploma from school. and medications just mask the problems once you stop them the depression comes back.
about a week or two ago my cousin took me to go hiking on a nature trail. i hadn't felt at peace like that in a long time. the air was clean and i loved the trees and the river. but i never get that feeling at home. i just hate the never ending boredom at home.
one. i hate medication they always give me the worst side effects. two. i hate counciling because i was forced to have it as a teenager and was never able to be a normal kid. i didn't get to just hang out at the mall learn to drive or even have a girlfriend. the last thing i want is a therapist.
i would love to go hiking more often but with out having a car it would be difficult and the city buses don't go there.