Everything I do is an escape. I feel something negative and I do something to forget about it.

I also pretend to know a lot because I do not know and I am ashamed of it.

I think that by acting intelligent that others will believe I am and then I will believe it. Although I am successful at this it doesn't change the facts.
Belief doesn't change reality.

Also I feel I have to pretend I am something or others will find out that I am am a good for nothing.

Am I a wombat?