... cancer so it all turned out very good. But it still bothers the both of us, we can talk or think about it with out crying. How can we get over this? Every thing turned out wonderful. Why does this still upset us so much!
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Because you both went to examine what might have been and you have tasted, just for a moment, what it would be like for the worst to happen. It is a very emotional experience. Just because things turned out perfect for you doesn't mean that you should deny your experience and how traumatic this whole thing was for you and your son.
What you are feeling is perfectly normal, sometimes we go through something like this and when we do not react in a way that we or other expect us to we feel guilty and feel that we should celebrate or move on. Why? Why should your reaction be anything less than what it is. Allow yourself the time to feel blown away by the 'what might have been' and don't get lost in it.
You have both lost your 'immortality' and that's a hard thing to lose but it is a positive thing and you will see that eventually. After all my experiences in this life I am an atheist and do not believe in all this getting down on your knees rubbish. God does not heal but life is what we make it. Use this experience to make both your lives the best that it can be. Know that it is yours and your sons responsibility to live each day and be mindful of what we have right now.
Love and light to you both.