Im a lesbian girl, although some people think I am I havent came out with this yet.. there is a girl whom I was working with for half a year, Im in love with her but dont know if she feels it the same way..we became closer at work and as female friends usually do we shared our problems, our plans etc. with each other, we were embracing and kissing when we met at work in the morning or went home and I started to like her more than just a friend
I dont know how that happened but suddenly I woke up and knew I desperately want her, I remember once we kissed in a car and our both look at each other after this was meaningful because I did it more softly and slowly but anyway it was just an ordinary kiss on lips.. then I was complimenting her a lot, she likes being flattered and in the centre of attention Im rather the opposite. she is definitely sure I feel for her something more.. she was exposing herself in front of me when we were changing to working clothes and waited for my reaction etc. I began to give her presents, first smaller later more expensive, several times she told me half a joke half serious that she knows I want her, I always laughed she is crazy. I love playing with her hair or stroking her cheek when there is an opportunity and she doesnt mind me doing that and also touches me while we tease each other. when we went to a company christmas party, we both got drunk and she told me not only once how much she likes me and gave me this night many kisses, longer than just usual kiss but not a french kiss and when we were leaving the party in a car, we sat in the back seats and I tried to touch and rub her leg, she allowed me to continue by smiling and by not pulling away from me but when I tried to touch her between her legs she turned back with saying it tickles her... dont know what to think about her, isnt she just teasing me?
the problem is she has a boyfriend but he isnt worth her, he has two children, both with different mothers and doesnt care about the youngest one, he has many debts and she signes an exekutory document to help him paying his debts for five years! He is 37 and she is only 20 she didnt tell it to anyone I discovered it by myself.. she deserves someone better.. I dont work in this company anymore she lives 30 km from me but its hard to ask her out, she lives with him and spends with him all the time and very rarely goes out with her friends. Do you think she has some feelings for me or should I give her up??