I have been bulied, degraded mentallly, used like a friend with benefits my entire chilshoot and teenage years. My biggest problem is being kind and good to people and avoiding conflict or showing rage. I just finished college but still I get haunted by my past despite the fact that I don't have contact wuth those kind of people. I have peace in my soul but sometimes I flip the switch inside and it feels like an atomic bomb.
I have no friends now except my family, I would like to gain that strength courage and confidence like a normal alpha male .
I got some advice that joining an army will get me to the right track.
I really need some advice regarding this matter .
Thank you in advance.