Hey, I have been thinking about this for a while and it's confusing me. Let me hear your opinion :)

1. I don't do much for others.
I prefer doing things alone because for me, it's fun to see how much I can manage on my own. So unless people don't ask me for help, I don't help them. I'll be very thankful if someone offers me help, but I wouldn't mind if they don't help me.

2. I don't text friends if I don't anything to say. So I feel used if someone texts me just because they feel lonely. I lived in another country for about 2 years but I only texted my best friends few times. It doesn't mean I don't like them. I just didn't think it necessary as I was in a different country.

3. I don't talk much if I don't have anything to say.
It doesn't mean I'd ignore you if you say something. It's just so that I might not start the conversation. Especially with my family, I go totally silent if I don't feel like talking. I do know what social talk means and I can do that if needed.

I am aware that I am passive when it comes to the interaction with people. I haven't cared much about it but lately it bothers me and confuse me.
What goes around comes around and I don't want to lose people that I like. But I just don't understand how much I am supposed to put effort on keeping relationships. Do I need to text them all the time? Do I need to ask them if they need help? Do I need to talk? It takes my energy but I'd do for my friends if they really want that. I'd be burned out though.

I need to stop writing for I feel so tired thinking about this question now. But if anyone is kinda same as I am or if anyone can see what I should do, it'll be great.
Thank you anyway for reading. Ask me if you don't understand anything.

Have a lovely day.