This has happened a few times now and it has been bugging me.
One day I was with my family in the car and they were arguing as a normal family would do at times when u get lost on the way to the safari park , but it kind of felt different , and before I knew it I ended up shouting at them telling them to 'STOP!' and dug my nails into my hands , then I put my head in my hands and starting shaking and I couldn't breathe very well.

The second time (a few hours ago) I was on twitch (an online website wear u can watch games live from ur phone etc) and the streamer (the person playing the game ) got angry because someone stole his idea and toke it for themselves , this was my fault , u see I have only been on this website for a week , and I won something from a different person and told my friend on his live game play , (stupid I know T.T) and he got mad and went to see the persons live game play. Then he told all his followers that this person was a so and so etc (tbh I don't wanna say ) and ended up commenting 'I hope he gets cancer and dies!' My family have had there fair share of cancer related problems in the past , my grandparents all died from some form of it , I got offended / upset (mostly upset) about this comment and told him 'don't u dare joke about cancer!' Then I started crying and shivering and I was struggling to breathe , I ended up blaming myself and putting myself down for what happened and Constantly apologising to everyone there for how much of an idiot I was , they tryed to calm me down and I worked after like an hour. (It was through texting so that's how my parents weren't involved ) this was like at 12:15 am on sep 30th 2015. Pls answer my question I really need to know xxx