well i always thought of myself as well unattractive, i mean it is like a force of habit i just can't get out of my head no matter what I do.I am to the point i hate going to out without make up on and i have to check the mirrors when ever i am near one as if i am a addict and they are my drug but it makes my sick because i just want to rip off my face and cry at times. I feel like a bad person to do this but i always judge a person at points when i don't even notice and i think i aggravate my family if i look nice and the would say i look beautiful but i just don't believe them or anyone for that matter. the only thing that makes me feel better about myself is make up which i can spend up to two hours getting ready.well i kinda wanted answers so i started looking up things and came across BDD and i told my grandma and sister and they say im just crazy and i think they are right because i do take pictures of myself but i do it to see if i look any better and i can't have other people take the pictures of me, I know im a confusion mess but i think its making my life horror im not as happy my grades are just going down i fear im going to lose my dream i just don't now whats wrong with me :(