Ok, so long story short. I have never had sex with a guy. Been interested, and dated them but just didn't go through with it. Always had an interest in women sexually (i'm bi, i know) but never dated one. About two years ago I went onto gay site and met by current partner. She is 10 years older and we fell in love so fast. She is my first and only sexual partner but doesn't know it. I know its wrong to lie but i felt so immature telling her I was a virgin when we started talking so I lied. I feel terrible but I can't tell her the truth. Just a block that is stopping me. by the way she cant tell im a virgin. I ended up coming out to my parents and they kicked me out. I went to live with her in different state and was in bliss till recently. She told me she needs space and has almost completely cut me off. She went to live with a friend for two weeks now and I stay in our apartment. And no, she isn't in a relationship with the friend. She is completely giving me cold shoulder and wont reply to any of my concerns. So much more to say but I tried to sum it up. Did i confuse soul mate love with maybe just infatuation? please don't be mean with your comments.