I have been with my bf for like 4 months now. And I was actually thinking of breaking up with him cos I didn't like in that way anymore, I was just trying to find a nice way to tell him... Anyways, so I wnt to his house to watch a movie (or break up if I was brave enough, I didn't want to hurt him...). Going to his house wasn't a big deal. I have been to his house a lot of times and we hang out and stuff. He is a sweet guy and we had been friends for like two years b4 getting 2gethr...
So, yeah while I was at his house he was trying to kiss and make out and stuff. And I said "I just don't feel like it...I am not in the mood..." like a few times. After sometime I told him nicely that "mayb we shouldn't be 2gethr..." He talked about staying 2gethr and tried to convince that breaking up was a bad idea. After sometime, he gave up and asked me if i would stay in his arms until the movie finishes, then I could go..." I said no cos I just wasn't comfortable and didn't think that it was fair on him...
I told him that I should leave and casually got up to pick up my bag. He forced me down on the bed. He was on top of me, trying to hold me down with all of his weight. I seriously told him to get off me that instant, then he covered my mouth and nose with his hand. He was really angry and said to me " SHUT UP, shut up...I am so pissd off at u...so fu@#ing pissed of at u right nw. I have been so nice to you, (thn he refered to all da times we culd or wre clse 2 doing it- u knw what it mean)...I can be really really mean..." He said all this while I was struggling 2 breathe, speak and move. I literally cried for a few secs and tried(my mouth was covrd) to say "I don't wna do this, I dnt wna do this..." I was actually willing to give in for like 5 secs, just cos if I do what he says then I could mayb start breathng again...and I only weigh like 40 kg so he was heavy. So, after like 45 secs of all this, he sort of realisd wat he is doing is really rong and he let me go. The moment I got up and got my bag I told him "...dnt txt me, dnt call me, dnt ever contact me again..." He said sorry many times but I ignored it all and left.
Mayb I overreactd but I was really scared and wntd to not be there...If he hadn't realisd or let me go...somethng bad wuld have happnd...
I was thinking 2 txt him "It's okay :) I 4give u..." cos he did say sorry and stoppd; plus nothing actually happnd at de end of the day. But anyways, I am confused about wat 2 do and wat happnd...
Also, he has been txting me saying "I am really sorry...I wanna talk to you bout something...I wanna meet up with u..."
PS all this time we have been together, he use to joke about "Hey look a lot of trees, I can rape u and no one would know...This is a quiet place, I can rape u and no on would know..."
Cheers,
Princess :)
