So me and this girl (we will call her B) so me and b have had a thing for over a year, around 15 months. I started to like her and she started liking me, so soon enough we were flirting and hanging out at school. So our relationship grew, we had our fights and she's lied to me and kept things from me and I've done my fair share too. So the day came where i started talking about us dating, she said not to worry because she didn't want one , shes had lots of excuses why, so i just dropped it and didn't ask again because she hates talking about it. So we have been really good up until she got back from her trip over seas, it was hard because we could hardly talk. So when she came back she was all cranky at me and just didn't seem herself, I gave her a bit, jet lag and all, take her a few days to get use to things again. So we talked but I could tell things weren't normal, she's was, it seemed, always angry at me and we were fighting, I will say I was picking the fights but that was because she was saying mean things like: we're only friends with benefits not boyfriend and girlfriend, I don't like putting a title on us, I don't know if I want to go out with you, I don't know what has kept me here. Stuff like this, I just see us more then friends with benefits, we do everything a boyfriend and girlfriend would do, we just aren't official, so it hurts to hear what she thinks when I put everything I have into us. I love her to bits and I'm happy waiting, which she knows, but I'd like her to be nicer about it, every time I try bring things up about her being nice we end up fighting and I feel bad. We are slowly sorting things out, like we're not fighting as much and it's starting to feel normal, it's just not there yet. I also think it could be a trust thing, she's liked this other guy before me, which I never knew about until I was told by one of her friends, B and this guy have send X's and stuff when me and B have been 'together' we had a big fight ages ago which she brings up when she's losing where within this fight she rubbed in how she was in the pub with him and having tea together which made me extremely jealous and angry. So I now hate him and the name which is his. They play for the same club, she plays netball he plays footy, so they use to hang out after their games. But I have found out he has moved on and no longer likes her, but it still hasn't made it any easier to trust her. She often talks to guys, a few, which I don't mind, she's fine to have friends I'm not going to stop that, but I don't talk to a single person but her, and I get angry because I give up so much and she can't do as much in return. So what is it I'm doing wrong? Is it me? Or am I doing this right thing? Thank you for your help! :)