I recently spent time with family while on vacation and I'm no longer denying the fact that I have been digging myself in a whole for 6 years let me explain. While on this vacation, I caught up with my cousin who I had not seen in 5 or 6 years. Growing up I always considered myself "cooler". More friends, I was a year older, he always seemed to want to spend time with me etc. Well in those 5 years many things happened and I am now accepting that I was in fact depressed. Like others who become depressed , I began isolating myself and had no desire to socialize with anyone throughout high school. I currently have just 1 friend and don't do the things other people my age do. My cousin on the other hand has plenty of friends, always going out having fun. I came back to the same old shit after visiting them and he goes off on a trip out of state with his friends. I know it sounds like I'm bitter towards him but I'm honestly happy for him and we get long just like we always have but I cant help but compare the way out lives have turned out and I always feel like I was left behind or as if I'm missing out on something. What should I do?