“You know what, Sam? I don’t know if I can take this anymore. We’ve lost everyone that we’ve ever cared about. I’ve been trying to bury my anger and sadness and act like everything is okay, but it’s not. I mean, first it was mom, then Jessica, dad, Ash, Jo, Ellen, Pamela, Cas, and now Bobby. I stayed strong for you because that’s what I was raised to do; take care of my little brother, but I’m losing it. Why don’t we get a choice? Why are we always the ones who have to save everybody and barely get a thank you in return? We end up losing the most in the end anyways. And how do we spend our days? Driving around the continental US, sleeping in crappy motel rooms and eating greasy takeout food. Our lives suck, Sammy. I just want to have a normal life; one where I can come home to a wife and kids every day after my normal job. One where I don’t have to go and hunt down all the things that go bump in the night. I want a life like the one I had with Lisa and Ben. When all I had to worry about was getting Ben to school on time and making sure I wasn’t late for work. You know who wants our life? Crazy people. We’re crazy people. We’ve tried time and time again to get out of this, to get on with a normal, healthy life, but it just never happens. We always come back. And why is that, Sam? Why do we always come running to the rescue every time we see someone in danger? Why do I have to be some kind of hero? Why do you? You were supposed to stay in college and have a life with Jessica, get married and have kids, but I came and messed it all up. I should have never come and got you from Stanford. Because of me, Jessica died and now you’re stuck in this nightmare with me. You got out once, but I went along and dragged you back in again. I’m such a sucky brother. I don’t deserve anything anymore, I’m just done, Sammy.”

I'm doing a monologue for school, but I can't find the episode this is on. I want to watch it so I'll do it justice. Please help.