I'm 14 and I have a boyfriend and we have been dating for a year and a half. I was molested twice by two different people since we started dating... (not by him) (I'm still a virgin) and every time we do something sexual I wanna break up or i regret it even tho it's my idea. My bf respects me majorly he never ever makes do anything I don't wanna do. I wanna marry him but I push him away all the time. I have had boyfriends before but never been in love. i dont want to lose him and i know he wont leave. Why do I act like this?