Sometimes I just can 't understand myself...
I want to be me, but I don 't know who this "me" is.
I hide my true feelings from others, afraid that they might reject me when I know they won't.
The things I like, the things I dislike, are all vanishing because I don't understand myself.
I want to be the one and only me, but I can't. I would miserably repeat ideas that other people had created. Being myself is the only answer I could think of, but I don't know who I am. There are two reasons why I don't know:
One, because I am scared. I am scared that once I unlock my true face, I will shatter. I might not gain anything from my real self.
Also, I am afraid of being someone else. In math, teachers teach us that 1+1=2. But this is just an idea humans created so that trades and such would be easier. But I cannot accept it. Why does it have to be 2? Why can't it be another number? Where is my say in this theory? I just can't understand. My teacher taught me an easy way to learn 1+1. Get one apple then another apple and count how many apples are in total. But once you cut them, they're not 2 apples anymore. So why does 1+1=2? I get so confused. Where is me? I am just stealing the idea of 1+1=2. Please help... who am I?