I've been diagnosed with purely obsessive OCD. I've experienced many different types of obsessions, from harming myself or others, believing I've indirectly killed someone. For the longest time I thought about philosophical Ideas, I was obsessed with them. I've been obsessed with my girlfriends previous boyfriends, doubting myself over them (she chose them first). I'm worried sometimes that I have a more severe mental illness, or even no mental illness, and I'm just acting as though I have OCD. I've started to become angry over these obsessions, and not as anxious. I feel immense guilt, as if I am the person who would act on these thoughts and images. I'm not afraid of death anymore, as it would be a relief to my mind. But recently, I've started getting anxious when watching the death of loved ones in movies. When it happens my entire body feels uncomfortable, to the point that I have to move. I can feel it in my spine and my legs mostly. I want to move and feel the urge to express the emotions as if I'm actually experiencing the death of my wife or girlfriend. I feel uneasy, on edge, and very impulsive. Its hard to resist, but I can. I want to scream, and walk furiously, cry and sometimes even die. I feel as though I'm right there, as though the person dying is my loved one and we've spent our lives together, and even though I understand the death isn't real, or in any way related to me, it's so easy and comes naturally to be able to imagine memories and experiences with the person. Would this be a symptom of OCD, or another type of anxiety disorder?
