Hi. I've had anorexia for many years now. The last time I went inpatient I was at a certain weight. My measurements and the way I look are the same as when I went inpatient the last time. But, I weighed myself this morning, and it is 15 pounds heavier than when I looked like this the last time. I remember being at this current weight before, and my bra size was a 34B and my thighs fully touched, as I have narrow hips. But now, here I am at this weight again but my bra size is 28-30A. I was a size 0-1. Now I am a size 10 in kids. I know vanity sizing and stuff... but I have some of my clothes from before too (sizes 0-1), and they are way too big. I have a thigh gap, and measurements are the same as when I was 15 pounds lighter. When I was at this weight before, my thighs were 3 inches bigger, my collarbones didn't show, and a bunch of other things. Same as when I was 80. But now at 95, my thighs are 3 inches smaller than last time I was 95. I don't know how to explain it. Why is this? Because my muscle obviously wasted away before, same as now. I AM THE SAME HEIGHT AS I WAS BEFORE. It was scary to see it this high. But I look like I did when I was 80? I'm so confused. same height....

OK I'M SO SORRY FOR USING NUMBERS!!!!!!!! I don't want to trigger anyone but it was just something I have been confused about all day, and I don't know how else to ask or explain it.

Thank you!