I know this isblong but please hear me out. I'm on the verge of a mental brrakdown.
I have mental illnesses like depression, lonliness, social anxiety, and a few others. I've scheduled an appointment with my college therapist but they can't get back to me for two weeks and I'm desperate. These illnesses are affecting my school performance and since community college started my freshman year (3 years in now), I've had insomnia, bad depression, moodswings, social anxiety, etc. I love learning new things and I know college can help with future plans but it's going way to fast for me. I'm missing assignments, faing tests and I have no motivation anymore. I have no clear career goals because I haven't found anything I want to do. I'm stuck in this program at school that makes it their mission to get students to tranfer as soon as possible but I've changed my major a few times and I know my couselor is getting tired of me not making up my mind. I've been here too long already and it's about time I transfer. I just feel like a failure. I'm enrolled in four classes and I'm not doing good in any of them. I have financial aid and if I fail two classes I'll lose the money until I need for next semester. I have to pay my mom rent and I won't have it! I'm so screwed. There's only 3 weeks left. I need help bad. I have no friends, no confidence, no one to talk to... All the things I'm interested in like drawing or writing in not considered a real job. I'm withdrawn and not social and I pretty much fail and life. This is driving me crazy and I never sleep peacfully because I'm constantly worrying. Help me
