You see I have anxiety and major depression is my biggest fear. I'm afraid that I might become depressed to the point that I would commit suicide. I fear emotional symptoms, Fear of becoming depressed, going crazy, of unusual feelings and emotions, unusually frightening thoughts. I think it's my anxiety that's making feel like this, but there's always the “what if?" what if it's depression? I don't think I'm depressed because I love my life, my family, myself, I look forward to many things in my life and there is no way in hell that I would ever hurt myself or others. Every time I think about hurting myself or others I get very anxious and panicky. Sometimes I start thinking "what if I get fed up with things in life?" When I have these thoughts I get very panicky because I'm afraid it might lead to depression if I ever get fed up with things I do in my life. I never get fed up with things in my life it’s just the way I think because of my anxiety, basically anything that I think of that can lead to depression I get anxious. I have taken many depression tests and they all say I have no depression. I was so afraid of the word depression that I tried to avoid it because it just made me anxious. I couldn't read or hear about anything that was related to depression because I would start to feel panicky. When I heard about Robin Williams my anxiety was really bad. Am I depressed? Or could I become depressed from fearing it? I heard from people that have anxiety that your greatest fear never comes true. Is that true?
Am I depressed?
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- 3+ months ago by Azusa Chan
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- fear, point, depression, suicide, major, depressed, biggest, afraid, anxiety
Responses (6)
Personally, i would say no. From the way you talk, i would say that most likely your anxiety is pretty severe, but not depression. Depression is more the feeling of "whats the point?" Or "why am i still living" and the general feeling of uselessness, while you seem to be more of a "what if" case. Im not saying not to worry about it, cuz anxiety is still a major issue, and can also lead to suicide, self harm, etc, but no, i would say that you most likely do not have depression. You should really find a waybto unwind. Go on a trip, take some time off, go somewhere with your kids, etc. I hope this.helps
You're not depressed. I have depression and major anxiety. I totally understand what you're going through, I would suggest meds for your anxiety because its really unhealthy. Plus I know it's so overwhelming living in fear. You should also avoid looking up or googling symptoms of depression. And people with depression still have hope with getting better, so it's not the end of the world. People aren't stuck with depression forever. Hopefully that relieves you a little bit. But i'm pretty sure you only fear it, but you don't have it. Just keep doing all of your hobbies and activities, stay motivated and know that you can't be happy 24/7, so if your down, its not permanent or instant "I suffer from depression." I'm so sorry you have to go through this constant struggle of "what if".
The main cause of depression is ignorance. If you want to overcome depression, then go on a quest and realize the truth. The moment you realize the truth about life, that it's just a show, we come and we go, that we may have a body but actually we are not the body but the one who is alive, the one that gives breath, the one who departs at death, then all these thoughts of anxiety and depression will disappear. The problem is we don't know who we are and why we are here. We are living in this world with a mistaken identity. That's why we get depressed. There is no need to be anxious or depressed or even live with fear. It is because we don't understand the simple basics, for example, death is certain, then why worry about death? Why think of suicide when anyway we are going to die when the time comes? Why not focus on switching over from being sad to being glad. Why can't we make our life change from depression to enthusiasm and cheerfulness?