... relationship with my amazing husband I now have. He had a son from a former relationship and has full custody. Together we had a child. With our combined family, we are raising 4 children. Things were going well and then the absolute worse thing happened, I became pregnant on birth control. In shock and still wondering how and why it happened, I became so hurt and confused as to why and how this could happen at such a bad time. I can not raise 5 children. I have always been pro-life, but for the first time in my life I now understood how a woman could have an abortion. I lost my sense of self, sunk into a deep depression and didn't know what to do. Neither of us wanted this. We were done having children and my tubes would have been tied had my insurance covered it. We considered abortion, but I just couldn't go through with it. I wanted to, but just couldn't. Now I am 5 months along, he has accepted it and is so excited to have a daughter, I however am still not ready nor will I ever be ready. I want to put the baby up for adoption, but he is so against it. I don't understand how he wouldn't oppose abortion, but is so against adoption? I don't think I can make that decision without him, but I'm at a loss on what to do. His family would have chosen abortion over adoption and would be angry. My family however would be angry with me for being pregnant, but would want me to keep it. I feel like I have no support. I thought after this amount of time I might accept this, but that is simply not the case