Me and my ex were engaged and our currently 8months pregnant. We have dealt with a lot in the past and the pregnant has not been easy on either of us especially with my hormones. I also suffer from depression, and the last couple of months I deliberately pushed him away and caused fights, hoping we would finish so he didn't have to see me for who I really was (a depressed vulnerable person who needs help). On a recent fight I said some really hurtful cruel things and we finished it. Ever since I have regretted what I said and how I behaved. I tried everything to make it right and was willing to change to help our relationship. But he said he needed some space apart to figure out what was best. He did say he did believe we would get back together he just needed some time apart. Thing is a day after we split he went on his facebook and started writing status about our relationship and openly flirting with girls. When I confronted him he said he was single and enjoying being single. Thing is although at the beginning I didn't give him space, he made it clear the was hope of a reunion but then at the same time was flirting with girls on facebook and exchanging numbers, going out and writing status showing he had no intention of getting back together with me, all the while saying to me he was under the intention of us getting back together. My question is should I hold out, hoping he will come back and we work through it. Or should I move on? I just feel that for someone who claims they loved me and cared for me how could they a day after we split be able to even flirt with girls. Also when confronted about his facebook he stated he was single and enjoying being single and it was me who split up with him. Atm the thought of being with someone else kills me but I don't want to keep hope for a reunion if it isn't there. Help!
I still very much love him and feel awful for the things I said, and was willing to try and work on it even if it means having to change parts of myself. But now after seeing all the things he has been saying and doing on facebook and his reaction when confronted, makes me wonder did he actually ever love and care for me, as you don't publicly do things like that to those you love? Help