I dont know if my secret/funnest to imagine desire of having two guys to force them selves on me or them sharing me (oral sex on both) is ill-conceived. But hey, its there.

Main question is well, most men who would participate in that with me are scum bags, STD infected, non loving etc etc. Most "good men" i would want for that really dont exist. The idea of having two guys exclusively loving me is wonderful, but is impossible. Should i just try to suppress these foolish desires that dont or wont work out in reality?